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Sue I have been there 1st hand. My bro was in that realm of life and tossed so much away. Now he is almost 40 an can't do shit with his life because of selling for over 1/2 of it. Yes the money is good, but the problem comes when they don't get caught. Time goes by, the money piles up and then when they do get in trouble, the money is there to help them out. My bro has been nabbed roughly 3 times, and each time money helped him get off. It got to the point where if I or anyone else in my family got pulled over, we were pulled out of our cars and frisked just cause we were related. He never learned cause he never had to do hard time. 10 days in county jail is joke, they learn the system, postpone court dates till Monday mornings (when they know county is comming for sure) they do this cause if they plead guilty by 9am they can be in county by 10am and out on the wrist/ancle braclet program by 12 noon. Sitting in their own house, eating their own food, etc.
I woke up one morning to a masive bang outside my bedroom door only to find my brother flopping around on the floor with blood comming from his ears, eyes, nose and mouth. Thank god for 8th grade health class or else I would never been able to save him. My dad was yelling at him while flopping, my mom was crying, dogs barking all the while the only one doing anything was me. When my brother came out of the hospital he told us he was freebaseing for 3 days in his room, saw spiders crawling all over him, freaked out and can't remember anymore.
I'm not saying you did the right thing, lord knows my parents tried everything, doctors, consuling, kicking him out, etc. Nothing works. It takes the person to want to change. Today life is fucked up, kids can wind up in jail for 20 years for having 1/8 of weed, instead of getting help. I can only recommed 1 thing for your son. He needs to 1st realize he needs to change. Maybe this turning him in will help. Also if you are smart you will tell him to tell the courts he has a drug problem and needs help. All the drugs were his. NEVER NEVER NEVER SAY YOU WERE SELLING IT. He will go away for a long time and return very very changed. He will not be the son you know. I have a friend sitting in jail right now for cutting of a cab drivers head off due to drugs. No joke. What's really sad is when he finnaly does wake up, it might be too late. My bro has wanted to clean up his life for over 10 years and and every time he gets close, something in his mind either scares him or makes him think he needs to go back to his old ways for money. I have held over 400k in a safe deposit box for him for over 5 years, of which it's all gone. Gone cause he tried to clean up and got no place. He bought a lawn cutting business which was going very well for him, 3k per week. Then one day he got tired of waking up, sold it and went back to his old life.
What you did was not bad. Repairing the damage will be rough. In the end your son will realize either in jail or on his own what you were trying to do. He will come back to you and say he is sorry. It just takes time. Be there for him like a mom is, that's all you can do.