The conflicted life of a female porn writer

[Agent]

Originally Posted by J-SiN

But isn't that every porn writer's experience? Those thoughts are nothing new.

But it's nice that someone wrote about it, on a non-adult web site no less.

I don't know how many times I've backspaced over a piece and replaced it with something sanitized and less effective because I considered it too "dirty", "perverted", or "suggesting". Or how many times I've hit post and thought to myself, "ergghhh, what if a friend or family member read that? She would think I was fucked in the head."

I'm glad someone has written about these feelings in a well put together piece intended for people outside of the business. I can get pretty conflicted over my work sometimes. It's nice to be reminded that I'm not alone.

If I have to write copyright for sites that deal with 18-19 year old porn stars I can't do it in one shot. It gets overwhelming and makes me feel like shit. Guilty, even. I have to space the work out over days and write about other things. I can't explain why. I have no moral problems with the niche (when it's not taken to highly suggestive extremes.) But that's just the way it is.