Digi why so negatieve, you know people care.........

You have no idea how lonely and depressed I am... for years I couldn't go out taking care of mom then for the 3rd year I cannot even speak, eat properly or make a damn phone call? I hope I'll die soon.

depressed...i can talk about that one, i went thru that last year and i still have my days like that, yeah maybe i cant imaging exactly how you feel, i only know you from this board but i read your postings and yes your posting hit me, and hell dont say "i hope i die soon" yes you are very sick but you have surely show how strong you are, lots of people would have give up life sooner, you are still fighting for your life and keep it that way, maybe easy talking for me, but there are more people who are having a bad disease but they still try to surfive.....mmmm i have the feeling i write chinese again....but please never say "i hope i die soon"

Stu,
I hurt, in all ways, my body and my soul... this would solve everything, my poor little sis could sort out and live her life hopefully. She lost her job last April, not because she was lazy but there are less and less jobs for specialists. Funny, isn't it. I just hate to take the same steps from bed to desk and from desk to bed, combined with some treatment at times... I am bored of myself, bored of cancer and feel hopeless.
Btw unless it got lost, you also got a PM from me :)

mm the pm of a couple of days ago, where you warned me? you mean that one? i didnt know what to do with that pm, because my intension of the message you where talking about,wasnt interpetated (i am sure i am writing that wrong) the way you thought it was, my meaning with that post was totally different then you thought, if it was mis understood by the person then i am sure , he would have pointed me on that and he didnt.

Wish I had your icq...

you can have my icq i will pm you that, oh i see you already found me!

i wanted to post a very personal message here but i cant....(stu<--- thinking back about the times she lost very good friends by suicide and sickness) i can just say one thing, every person got on this world for a reason, so fight for it in sickness and health...to stay on this world

Looks like a white house to me....


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But it looks good, can't wait to get one for myself.

Boo,

I didn't read anything in this thread because I'm too freaking tired...

Goodnight all.

ps. I have stu's ICQ :D

I really have no idea what to say other then to say my condolences but that always seems so empty to say. Right now I have two close friends who live locally near me dying of cancer, one has lung cancer and the other has liver cancer, and I don't know what to say to them either.

digifan - just because no one says anything doesn't mean that no one cares.

I look at this area of the board as a place to vent - to get shit off my chest - sorta like the break room at a normal office.

Almost everyone on here has some sort of problem - some are much worse than others - but I think we all do care about each other, even if you don't see a reply to every gripe you post :)

I think Greenie, you nailed. Sometimes you just don't know what to say, but I believe that most of us really care.

digifan, never give up, never surrender, we all care.

Thank you very much girls and guys...
I agree Cleo and I just happened to vent too Greenie, sorry.
And it is awesome you have a place in the board for this. |thumb
Stu was awesome too on icq..
I must take some rest soon but this time I'll fall asleep I think.
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Hugs my friend, sleep well. |zzzzzzzzz

Well, looks like I became the night watchman, and Ill turn the light off on this mediocre Thursday.

Spent today going on with the plumber about why I chose a propane water heater over any other form..and that was because if the house loses power I dont lose hot water...so he griped about the part being more $$ etc..and I finally asked him why he gave a shit what I paid for a part, and if he didnt want to install it then Ill call someone else...needless to say, the part was replaced the water is hot and I can bathe normally not like a whore from the 1800's LOL

I have the house to myself for 2 days, so Ill be able to catch up on anything that lacked today and yesterday...

Digi, never apologize for ranting and having a bit of Fuck You for the world...Im sorry for your position, I think there but for the grace of God go I...I just found out a friend of mine who had been suffering from a bit of forgetfullness has a brain tumor...my father fought cancer and my mother thankfully beat her bout with it. My only advice or words of encouragment to you are..Fight most of your days and on those days when you cant fight...give it what ya can. You have friends abound here..all caring..all giving a shit. Be Well.

See digi, i told you.....not all people know what to say if they read some postings and i told you also that most like to use the board to yel and nag and @#$%^^$$&&%$ like me:D But peope do care!
HYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA ALLLLLLLLL I AM AWAKE |boobies||waves| its 7:20 morning here, time to work|headbang|

Yes I see Stu... it is great, thanks people ;)