Good-Bye to all of you... from ~Bell
 

this is a hard one to write...

I wanted to take this time to tell my friends here that I
have enjoyed getting to know you... spending time with
you... and I will miss you...

I have decided to leave the business...

as many of you know I had been looking for someone
hiring for quite some time... the right situation hasn't
presented itself... and it's time for me to do something
different...

a gal has to make hard decisions that aren't always
what she'd prefer to do - when a gal has to save
her house and car... 3 years ago I'd have never imagined
being in a spot like this... but in 2001 unexpected medical
expenses and relocating a sister from one end of the
country to another after she had a stroke - has totally
depleted my savings...

I get nervous when my $$ cushion is gone...
that's why I kept asking around and posting on boards
looking for work... something I had been hoping for
for nearly a year - today - fell through and I guess
it's time for me to move on...

this is a hard one to write because:

I. I am going to sincerely miss you...

2. I feel like such a failure in this biz...
although I have accomplished quite a bit and learned allot...
in the back of my mind there's a little voice that says hang
in there... but I am in a panic sort of mood... thinking I
better hurry and make some changes - maybe one day
when my savings are built back up to a level I feel safe
working hours and hours on the internet - maybe then I'll
be back...


3. I am generally such a private person about my real - private
life... but I couldn't leave you - without saying goodbye...
and giving you a bit of a reason...


I am so GLAD that I was able to go to the Vegas - Internext
2004 convention as a result of winning a contest that
WEGCash.com had - - - I loved meeting lots of you...

that also makes it harder for me to be saying goodbye...
I don't WANT to leave you...

I wish you all the best... and I don't plan to cross post this
(at least as of this moment in time - I probably won't
mention this anywhere else - except maybe... maybe 1 other
place - - - hopefully those that I've met along the way will
see this via the BoardTracker.com and the BoardScanner.com
services... there's no way I could ever personally touch base
with all of them... so I hope they SEE this... I'll miss you....)

with hugs and love...

~Bell

Bell this is terrible news.... I never pictured you as the type to leave something you enjoyed doing, your friendly, and you have even told me that your energetic, and self motivated..

Have you looked at this in every way possible, have you exhausted all possible oppratunities??

The reason i ask is that many people when they recieve news they are not fond of, or look at something somewhat quickly, they allow it to effect them in the wrong way inittially, than when they take some time to step back and really evaluate the situation, they see it sint that bad, or at least as bad as they had first thought. (Anyone that knows me will tell you I always explode initially, than calm down when I take a step back from the situation to think about it).

I hope you take some more time to really look at it Bell, I think you have a bright future in the business and would hardly say your a failure in it, in any way.

Bell,

that is terribly sad to hear.... I am very sorry you need to give up the biz..

So this is your final decision... ?
Was there no work to be found..?

I wish you all the best in what ever path you chose..

DD

This sucks, can you please atleast just run a tgp or something to keep your feet wet, so you have a reason to post , maybe just to come around for alittle play time?

BELL :(

Come on - you can't leave - you need under 800 posts to get your |buddy| :D

Seriously - don't leave completely. If you have something else lined up, you can still do this part time - hell, I did this & worked a full time job for the 1st 30 months I was in business.

Come on! Please? Pretty please? :D

Bell, it would suck to see you go.
Write to me at jim@greenguysboard.com and I will put you in touch with people that may hire you.

Bell, this is very sad news.
I don't know you like others do but still I feel this is gonna be a big loss.
If this is really the only thing you can do right now I hope you come back real fast |sad|

Bella Bella Bella
 

SistahDivaGF..

Now where am i gonna submit all my "camwhore sits on balloons while smoking a ciggy when wet from chocolate syrup outside tied to a tree gives a 27yr old teen a blowjob" galleries too??

At least keep your TGP rolling.. we'll keep it updated with fresh content rolling out *trust me with all the content Tart just won, we could populate the entire teen/amateur/babe/lez/hardcore cats for months to come!!! and all you have to do is 1 a day hit approve/delete approve/delete slap some ads on there.. get new extreme hosted galleries, and let it roll.

Hit me up on email and we'll see what we can do.


|smooch|

Bell, very sad to hear that.

One thing you should consider is not leaving completely. You don't have to. The internet will run itself until you have time to put into it. I worked this business for over 2 years while working a fulltime job until my income became good enough to leave that fulltime job and do this. That is how many have done it.

Keep your head up. Good luck!

Bell,
It was nice to meet you in Vegas and I'm sorry you are looking at leaving the business. Maybe you can try typing up a paragraph with what you are looking to do for an employer and post it on a bunch of the other boards. I work a full time job right now and run my own sites (although my full time job is also in this business, just working for someone else) but you can do it. A couple extra hours at night even if you do get a full time job to keep the extra income rolling in is a big plus.

Hope you dont leave completely.

Andy

Bell..I am so very sorry to hear this!!
Don;t give up completely tho..a lot of us run out sites and have full time jobs!! I'm one that does..
I sent ya an email too..maybe I can help you in some small way..??

Amber

Come on Bell stick around :)

Hi Bell |waves|

Ya know it took guts to make a post like this one - I know it had to be very hard for you...

It also takes the same fortitude (and more) not to give up on something you yourself said you don't want to give up on. Many of us have been in similar situations at some point. I get similar emails at least a couple times a month from webmasters.

I have seen webmasters go through deaths of spouses, bankruptcies, attempted suicides, repossessions - even one webmaster who is stricken with a serious illness that has them currently bedridden in the hospital yet they still go at it on their laptops. These are people who experienced serious set-backs and tragedies yet never gave up.

You obviously have a tight knit family here willing to do anything to help you. Its ok to feel frustrated and concerned about your situation, but you also must use the same feelings to "get mad" and decide that you will not give up on your goals and dreams.

Leave the biz on YOUR terms when you are ready. Leave to travel the world. Leave because you can't stand the thought of cashing another sponsor check. Leave because you've done all you set out to do and want to take on other projects or spend time with family and friends...

But whatever you do Bell, do not leave simply because you don't see any other way around it at this point. Adult webmasters are creative and caring people. We can help you get on track - but its entirely up to you kick, fight, and scream your way back to where you want to be.

By all means give me a shout if there is anything I can do to help.

netpiddler@flashcash.com

Bell -

This is so sad. You can't leave:( Shoot me over an email with your salary requirements and I will see what I can do!

Bell,

I've given up loads of times... and thought about getting a 9 to 5 job. But something always came up, even at the last minute, to stop me.

There's some really nice people posting here, and as you can see, you've already had offers.

In the immortal words of Prince...

"And if de-elevator tries 2 bring u down
Go crazy - punch a higher floor!!"

Bell if I were you I would still try to build at least a couple of free sites a week and get them listed. Remember this biz can earn you $$ even while sleeping. Not sure how your hosting expenses sre but shave it down to one domain that is sorta brandable and runn all your sites thru that. You are very nice hope you hang on.

soggy

what a wonderfully touching display of caring...

thank you all so much...

I will print this thread out... and give it some thought tonight...
and check back tomorrow to print out anything else...
I will take ExtremeJohn's advice to not make a decision
today... and have some thinking time...

who know's maybe... maybe one of the offers in this
thread above - will be the answer to a prayer...
or maybe - - - someone else will see this thread and
either post or contact me: evelyn937 at LYCOS dot com

I don't want to go...

thank you all for reaching out to me...
I will be back to this thread tomorrow...

thank you for taking the time to reach out to me...

love and hugs to all...

~Bell

Wow Bell this is sad news.

I hope you take the advice that others have offered and stick around at least part time while you get things back together.

You are good company here.

Bell, I'm so sad to read this news. :(

I do agree with what the others have said, you CAN keep your biz alive part time. I remember you coming on the scene over on ANS and you've always struck me as a standup kind of person, and one that if there was a match I'd be happy to do business with. I wish you the very very best in whatever you decide you must do, but to echo others here... Please, pretty please with sugar and a cherry on top, don't leave completely. :)

Bell - (and for those who haven't figured it out yet)
I don't hang around here much anymore.
In fact, I have another full time job myself for health reasons.
I review Mark's when I have time, as well as a couple others jobs that I can schedule when I have time.
Point being, don't drop out completely.
My oldest son will be making free sites again within a week or so, basically taking my submitting place.
SE traffic that you have built up over time will not decline over night...

Do what you have to do to get your cushion back, then slowly work your way back into the fray of this biz.

for those of you here that requested that I eMail you...

you have mail :)


seems the BoardTracker.com and BoardScanner.com
worked well - - - I at last count had 71 eMails
from friends and others with suggestions...
there are some really terrific webmasters out there
so refreshing to know that even though they might not
post here often - or at all... that they do READ the boards

thank you all for your eMails...
and for your posts here...

I am checking out a few things... and waiting for a response
back from a few that requested I contact them...

keep your fingers crossed for me...

~Bell

Please, please, Please, please

you're all so sweeeet...

I have an guardian angel trying to help me - and in a couple days
I'll have aclearer picture of what will happen...

keep your fingers crossed for me...

after-all you have all GROWN on me... be sort of hard
to not have you there...

~Bell

Bell,
Like everyone else is saying, you really shouldn't get out completely, even if you have to take on a job outside the biz to stay afloat. Hang in there hun, you never know when something may come around!
|roses|

See Bell when we wait and dont rush to decisions, it gives time a chance to work for you, not against you :)

Remember when one door closes another one opens, but if you run before you give that 2nd door a chance to open than you will never know what you might have missed.

Bell,

I'll keep my fingers crossed for you.. and hang in there please. I know it is not easy but with a little help of your friends like the song goes.. everything is possible.

respect, peace and profit

Judy

John,
I am sitting here with the puppy in my lap, mom is sleeping and I am reading your post for the 10th time... I hope I'll see that second door opening :)

Amen to that!!!

Tomorrow will take care of tomorrow. in the meantime go to your garden and watch the rocks grow.

Shinto philosophy

It will open Digi, youll see, I know your also going through a tough time, you will get through it, and another door will open for you. It may not be when you want, and it may not even look like what you want, but it's the initial opening and will be what you make it.

Bye Bye Bell, Sorry to see you go! :( But, I hope your new ventures bring you lots of happiness and cash :)

Thanks John... |waves|

:)

I think TODAY is the day - my guardian angel will
be |shake| SUMPIN-SUMPIN for me |shake|

in addition to you all crossing your fingers for me
- - - since TODAY is Friday the 13th...
please - - - - avoid eatting any cabbage...

thank you....

~Bell

p.s. are YOU my guardian angel ???

Friday the 13th is always lucky for me!

Bell :hi; i met you at ans.....i am sorry to hear your leaving the bad thing is your the second one who leaves i know in a cople of days, hun is it realy that bad? i hate to see people leaving , but i respect their desiocion(mmmmm why do i think i write that wrong) its late here i am already 14 hours on the net, i wish you all the best, still i hope you stay

stuveltje

So do you have any news Bell that you would like to run by everyone?? Have you had a lucky Friday the 13th?

someone MUST have eatten that cabbage yesterday...
I haven't yet heard from my guardian angel...

so still... still keep those fingers crossed for me...

and it sitll might also be wise to avoid the cabbage...

~Bell

p.s. yooooo hoooo.... guardian ANGEL are YOU out there ???

I'm pulling for ya!

my fingers are crossed all the time :)

you are all so sweet...

let's all... also... sleep with our legs crossed tonight...

and maybe... maybe my guardian angel will contact me
tomorrow... :)

~Bell

p.s. I'm fixing fried chicken, mashed potatoes, corn on
the cob, green beans, crescent rolls, and peach cobbler...
have some family do to arrive soon... then we're playing
dominoes tonight... If I don't get a chance to check back
here tonight... I sure will tomorrow... have a great
Sunday everyone... .....smoooochies....

Have a great night with the family Bell, sounds like they will have a great meal.