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Old 2006-12-18, 06:33 PM   #25
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Originally Posted by SirMoby View Post
Isn't threateding to sue someone on a public board over a misunderstanding wasting your time and damaging your own reputation?

I was on the BL once. It took a very short period of time to be removed. I did not beg. I did not keep it quite. I did not threated to sue. There's an infinate amount of room between those approaches and that is where I prefer to do business.

Any way. I wish you luck.
Your right! And that's exactly what I accomplished. I gave everybody the impression that I'm an ass and I wasted the better part of two days. Now, today I've been furious at myself and wasted today too. AND you weren't the first person to tell me that. Just be cool! I was told. Its not a big deal, relax. I didn't really understand the context of this BL. I thought it was a much bigger deal. I hadn't eaten, I was annoyed, blood pressure was crazy and then I just loose it.

But here's the other part I'll confess. Even the word blacklist makes me see red because I know how harmful that can be and to me it was just someone attacking me and I didn't have a rational thought process. I kinda come from a rough and tumble side of the tracks and well, you know you can read between the lines. Its like my reptilian brain takes over and I act like an ignoramus that no one can deal with. This is wholly inappropriate in general I know this, but particularly damaging in an online community where people don't care about your personality problems. I'm very ashamed that this has happened here.

My biggest mistake was not having the confidence that maybe I had built some capital at this board and people would be willing to help me. Its not that I ignored this possibility, my brain never got there really. It just jumped over the thought altogether in favor of fight. I'm so sorry. Please forgive me. If there is an adequate pennance, I will pay it.
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