Hi Bell
Ya know it took guts to make a post like this one - I know it had to be very hard for you...
It also takes the same fortitude (and more) not to give up on something you yourself said you don't want to give up on. Many of us have been in similar situations at some point. I get similar emails at least a couple times a month from webmasters.
I have seen webmasters go through deaths of spouses, bankruptcies, attempted suicides, repossessions - even one webmaster who is stricken with a serious illness that has them currently bedridden in the hospital yet they still go at it on their laptops. These are people who experienced serious set-backs and tragedies yet never gave up.
You obviously have a tight knit family here willing to do anything to help you. Its ok to feel frustrated and concerned about your situation, but you also must use the same feelings to "get mad" and decide that you will not give up on your goals and dreams.
Leave the biz on YOUR terms when you are ready. Leave to travel the world. Leave because you can't stand the thought of cashing another sponsor check. Leave because you've done all you set out to do and want to take on other projects or spend time with family and friends...
But whatever you do Bell, do not leave simply because you don't see any other way around it at this point. Adult webmasters are creative and caring people. We can help you get on track - but its entirely up to you kick, fight, and scream your way back to where you want to be.
By all means give me a shout if there is anything I can do to help.
netpiddler@flashcash.com