Why does this give me a bad feeling?

[stuveltje]

I just need some opinions or advice here.
Yes some years ago i was 24 hours online , the net was all, i made alot of friends and talked for hours with them, now the last 2 years i made my choise, yes bizz will always important for me, but my hubby and kids are more important for me, i told that most of my friends, for real my bizz went first place and my hubby lett me, i did my kids things, and wife things, and house things, but i am getting older and had a realy bad year which got me think alot about things, life is short and i want to do alot of other things too, so hell yeah i gave even an explantion to most of my friends why i am not online much and if i am online i dont have many time to chat, and when i have time to chat i dont wanna chat about bizz....still some friends gave me a a bad feeling, saying i didnt message them for some time, hell i am still around, but i made a choise, i have 2 beautifull(big pain in the ass) but i love them so much kids, my hubby..what can i say about him, he alowed his wife not sleeping in his bed for months, because she found the bizz more important, he said, you love that biss go for it, now i changed my mind....why the fuck i feel guilty now even i have explained my friends in this bizz that i choose for my fam, that i am not much around...maybe i should say it this way, why the hell alot of my friends in this bizz, dont understand that my fam is very important to me and i made my choise...................
and still i feel so fucking guilty for not being around.
I just need some advice to deal with this