Question For The Guys: Why facials?

[Toni KatVixen]

Originally Posted by stuveltje

i have never hide for any one that i work in porn bizz, only i had to keep in mind, what i do, also get my kids and hubby involved. So i explained each and anyone who wanted to know, that i am not a performer but a coding lady, because yes when you say as a woman i am in pornbizz, they think you are behind you screen naked masturbating all day, so metioning thats "the real me" will count only for performers and i totally understand that point, but there is also an other side of pornbizz, the coding guys/girls and hell they can get in trouble when they have a fam and kids, because not all will understand the job you do and your kids will be hit by it and your hubby, but i am that person, i will never hide or lie about what i do, but i will try to explain what i do to make the people understand and that works, i always thought this way, job and private life are 2 seperate things, after 8 years i still manage to keep it that way. Again this is my thinking, i have all the respect for all ladies and guys who are a performer in this bizz, but if you show your real you, do you still have some private stuff left in your life with your friend or spouses? or is bizz your life or your life is bizz?

Lets try this again.....

Just a warning, sometimes my fingers don’t keep up with my thoughts and I have a bad habit of leaving words out…..

I can fully understand keeping your life separate from your biz, you have to no matter what you do. What I was referring to was my sexual nature that is shared in my site. Many of the true sologirl/couple sites will do what it in their true nature not just shot a bunch of anal because it sell yet they hate it…..

And with us starting when we lived in the Midwest, I don’t know how much know about that area, but it is major bible belt and they will pretty much burn you at the stake if found out. When the site was a hobby, we had to keep it secret, we both worked main stream jobs, our families are there…..in fact, I use to volunteer at a women’s shelter and was let go when my site was discovered by a bible thumper from the board of directors. Keep in mind that the shelter doesn’t discriminate against helping strippers and other sex performers…..I just couldn’t help them. We have lost friends due to it….so I’m fully aware of paying the price for being in front of the camera.

Coders/promoters can hide it so much easier, their face and other bodies parts aren’t out there and when found out….well, they weren’t making it, so it is a little better…. When you have your face out there, the risk is bigger. It is great that you are able to be upfront about it in your life, but I don’t know what your local culture is….that will play a lot into it, but I’ve always admired and enjoyed your blunt honesty through your broken English. Your posts sometimes make my day.

On our move to Oregon, we stopped at the Grand Canyon and I had a fan come up to me. I had a member come up to me in wally world in Florida, after I got off work from my mainstream job…just a block away….icks.

But you are coder/promoter….you may be disrespected by mainstream but performers are treated a bit lower. Many of us are treated as trash…..just like a streetwalker by their druggy pimp by mainstreamers and actually worst by some of the promoters. They love promoting sex, but if you do it in front of the camera you are a mindless moron. I’ve had several coders/promoters treat me like that when I know for a fact that I have more education and I am much smarter than those asses….the difference is they don’t have principles and I do….many of them almost got bitched slap……I’m have a very hot temper when pissed off…….

But my blog is pretty much who I am. I share the death of my pets, my political views/outrages, family issues (not to detailed, for obvious reasons), my mainstream jobs (no company names) when I’m stressed, down and out…..there isn’t too much that I don’t share. It was started just for my members to get to know me and now it is my release. Hell, Torn knows how I feel he doesn’t want to hear me tell him something that he already knows….so my blog lets it out.

My parents know that we are in adult, not the full extent such as my site….but they probably have an idea. But they don’t question it; just ask how our business is doing. The main reason why I don’t fully let my dad know is because I’m daddy’s girl, my sister is a fuck up and if he actually knew I believe he would be more pissed off to what he sees is the waste of my college education. Thinking that I could do so much better with my career choice.

But as I get older, I currently don’t work mainstream and the local culture here in Portland, Or, I feel safe to be able to discuss my “porn” knowledge. It is hard as hell not to share my knowledge when mainstream folks are discussing internet and porn and they are clueless……, so our location as helped.

But my business is my life, we have 12 cams in our house, hard for it not to be……and I suck at acting and faking who I am, we have chosen not to have kids so not to restrict who we are, we have known several couples that have almost lost their kids due to their sites.