Friday February 1st (aka Frigid Friday)

Useless · 2019-02-01, 12:26 PM

Meh.

Now that I have been effectively unemployed for one month, I should be planning my escape route. Everything is a mess in my head, so I sit here each day continuing down this path. It's a strange thing. I know that the longer I go without an income, the more behind I become on my debt, the much more difficult it will be to climb back out of this whole. Yet here I sit, watching it all collapse around me. The great thing about depression is that you're wired in a way that, at the very least, you blame yourself for your bad decisions. Other types of crazy people blame everyone else.

On the brighter side, for now I am warm and cozy. I have a dog snoring beside me. I have a hot cup of coffee in front me. Plus, I still have a fully functioning penis. There's a lot to be said for being able to get an erection - even if you are alone when you have it.

Greenguy · 2019-02-01, 03:59 PM

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Originally Posted by Useless Warrior

...The great thing about depression is that you're wired in a way that, at the very least, you blame yourself for your bad decisions. Other types of crazy people blame everyone else.

When I get like that, it's not a blame thing, it's basically an "I just don't give a fuck." kinda thing. You'll hopefully snap out of it - maybe find a secret project to work on or something...

Useless · 2019-02-01, 05:22 PM

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Originally Posted by Greenguy

When I get like that, it's not a blame thing, it's basically an "I just don't give a fuck." kinda thing. You'll hopefully snap out of it - maybe find a secret project to work on or something...

I love projects - especially secret ones... Being productive, especially while doing something I enjoy makes a huge difference in my daily mood. I wish I knew how to sell my online talents and earn a living from them. (How do self-taught people forge careers?) I could never do this work in an office environment, but I have always enjoyed the work. I mean, look at the amount of fruitless years, the thousands and thousands of wasted hours I spent working on my old websites. It's insane, but I loved the world of webmastering; creating, building, tweaking, and such. I genuinely miss it. It was the only "job" I ever had that I wanted to do. I didn't hate it, despite never making a living off of it. What an idiot.

Greenguy · 2019-02-01, 05:45 PM

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Originally Posted by Useless Warrior

...I loved the world of webmastering; creating, building, tweaking, and such. I genuinely miss it. It was the only "job" I ever had that I wanted to do. I didn't hate it, despite never making a living off of it. What an idiot.

I hear ya. I barely make money these days, but I honestly love doing this crap, so I forge on

2019-02-01, 12:26 PM	#1
Useless Certified Nice Person Join Date: Oct 2003 Location: Dirty Undies, NY Posts: 11,268	Meh. Now that I have been effectively unemployed for one month, I should be planning my escape route. Everything is a mess in my head, so I sit here each day continuing down this path. It's a strange thing. I know that the longer I go without an income, the more behind I become on my debt, the much more difficult it will be to climb back out of this whole. Yet here I sit, watching it all collapse around me. The great thing about depression is that you're wired in a way that, at the very least, you blame yourself for your bad decisions. Other types of crazy people blame everyone else. On the brighter side, for now I am warm and cozy. I have a dog snoring beside me. I have a hot cup of coffee in front me. Plus, I still have a fully functioning penis. There's a lot to be said for being able to get an erection - even if you are alone when you have it. __________________ Click here to purchase a bridge I'm selling.