hopefully that last xmas tree i put up

[TightTeela]

nothing wrong with the trees themselves, im a junkie for pretty lights, i'll be jealous as hell when you are all in vegas i'm just against the standardized format of xmas, doing what your supposed to do etc, like i said, im too old for santa and i dont believe in jesus, so why not give gifts on the new year, or on the soltice, why xmas? so hopefully i'll be somewhere warm and sunny next xmas, somewhere where theres no xmas, give myself some time off before im obligated to celebrate it. this year seemed not the worst xmas, but one where i honestly cared least, it actually felt like it was a waste of time, i couldnt get into buying gifts, even for myself, the idea that i need something between dec 1-24th that i didnt already have or have in mind to buy myself, seems odd. getting together with my family was nice, but i can do that any time, and it seems odd to be obligated to be in holiday cheer, some of the best conversations i've had started because someone was down or pissed off or some issue had come up, glueing a smile on because theres a plastic santa within 10 feet, doesnt make sense.