The conflicted life of a female porn writer

[J-SiN]

But isn't that every porn writer's experience? Those thoughts are nothing new.

[RedCherry]

If someone had told me years ago, you will end up writing in the adult industry, building porn sites, I'd of laughed my ass off. Like her, I wanted to write fiction. When I discovered the computer, I wanted to do a career with it. Now I get to combine both loves.

But dang, I love my job. 10 years later, I still love it. My experience wasn't like hers, as I always worked for other companies over the internet, but I can relate.

I think that it is a woman who is writing it is the only reason it won any kind of award.

[kathblack]

I have to agree. I started out writing for mainstream magazines and family-oriented tips and homeschooling books/tutorials. I began writing erotic/romance type stories and looked to the 'net for a place to start posting my stories for people to read. After a week of full-immersion HTML cramming I learned to build my own sites - and the rest is history! lol

I bet there are literally THOUSANDS of stories just like these all over the globe. LOL Where's our awards? Guess we weren't smart enough to write an article about our porn-writing experiences. Time to toot our own horns?

[Agent]

Originally Posted by J-SiN

But isn't that every porn writer's experience? Those thoughts are nothing new.

But it's nice that someone wrote about it, on a non-adult web site no less.

I don't know how many times I've backspaced over a piece and replaced it with something sanitized and less effective because I considered it too "dirty", "perverted", or "suggesting". Or how many times I've hit post and thought to myself, "ergghhh, what if a friend or family member read that? She would think I was fucked in the head."

I'm glad someone has written about these feelings in a well put together piece intended for people outside of the business. I can get pretty conflicted over my work sometimes. It's nice to be reminded that I'm not alone.

If I have to write copyright for sites that deal with 18-19 year old porn stars I can't do it in one shot. It gets overwhelming and makes me feel like shit. Guilty, even. I have to space the work out over days and write about other things. I can't explain why. I have no moral problems with the niche (when it's not taken to highly suggestive extremes.) But that's just the way it is.